Maybe I'm ready to throw it all away

Going, going...gone.

I'm gonna get it done, get it done... before the night segways to day!
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I've got a LOT of articles left to edit under 12 hours. Booo. Not cursing the raket because extra money is always good (very, very goooood), but I AM cursing myself for putting this off until the last minute (again). In light of this seemingly-desperate situation however, I will Pola my way through it (naks, my name is a verb now. HOHYEAH!) by procrastinating further. DON'T WORRY WENGAY I WILL FEEEENEEEESH DEEES!

A weird, random thought --

If Ted Mosby has his front porch, then I have my Sunday morning smoke theory; that is, a means of judging which of my relationships will last by determining who will meet up with me on Sundays to smoke cigarettes and pass the time ten, fifteen, even twenty years' time. I see Maka, already a legend in the field of psychotherapy, using her trusty metal rods to help us move past issues (that really should've been put an end to decades ago); or console me for being in my loveless marriage (it, apparently, is written. DAMN YOU, RODNEY!!). Pia, by then, would of course be married (not a smug married though -- hello Bridget Jones's Diary reference; I'm such a girl yo), and will try to sneak a drag or two while Thena and Eric flit about. Reg would light up stick after stick, regaling us with her newest list of people she hates that week, while I, in response, help by gamely plotting said people's ruin (to no avail). I foresee occasional appearances by Kakki (who will rag on us for still being smokers), Ada, some A1, Syete and 9r people, and even Mikey (who hopefully by then will not be Beebee or Sparkles McGee or whoever). Haha.

This isn't to say that other people who don't make my Sunday morning cigarette list aren't important. (I seem to have left out some people, for example, who are dear to me but don't belong in certain groups. SoRryZ nA pOh! <-- yuck) But I think it'd be a great life if after decades, I still find myself in close contact with the persons i did name. This very random thought wasn't meant to sound syrupy, the primary objective was to voice out in words how luxurious it feels to smoke a cigarette on a Sunday (babaw!), but I guess in my own way, I'm throwing out what I want (what I really, really want -- haha!) to the world in hopes that I get what I picture to be an ideal ending. It's by no means perfectly happy -- as detailed earlier we'll all be old albeit still issue-ridden by then -- but in a world where apparently the only thing constant is change; I hopehopehope that these people stay permanent fixtures in my life.

In other news I haven't spoken to my mother in three weeks in what initially was an epic stand-off. Now I miss her and I feel horrible. I'm...sorry? :(

Also, I miss Rock Band. I also want a Kopi bun. And damn I really need to finish these articles. O-M-fucking-C. Hahaha.

Reviving my poor abandoned LJ until I get tired (again) of cross-posting
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Yesterday didn't really feel like Mother's Day as my mother had her own plans and I had mine. But it was, introspectively, a celebration of my longest-standing relationship.

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Granted, parenthood is rather obligatory.

But not everyone is a good parent, and not everyone can keep at it with the same resilience that my mother's displayed the last *gulp* 23 years. (I feel old.) Also, while the law decrees that parents be responsible for their offspring, there are no stipulations on love, and how.

With human interaction valued as society's strongest currencies, the comfort of having my mom be my mom is priceless.

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So for the record, I did not forget. And I am always grateful.

Here's to your 'special day,' mom.

Dinner next week's on me.

Batman hates Christmas. Hahaha.
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I'm in the middle of rebuilding my 'library' (a by-product of my newfound free time now that November's over and done with) and I was wondering if anyone has a soft copy of Naya Valdellon's poem, "Ped Xing" with them? I've been googling for the last hour, but I haven't had any luck, and the link on Ail's page is dead. Help, anyone? Tidings of comfort and joy (it's the holidays, after all) to the lucky helper! -_-'

If you don't watch The Office, then you won't understand. :D
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The newest Office ep is love. Hey Ail and whoever wants to watch! --> http://www.fanpop.com/spots/the-office/videos/1105769

One of the running themes of said episode was carrying on after a break-up which I found... convenient? Coincidental? The world's way of poking fun at me, maybe? Heh. But anyway, Jim and Pam squee-ness aside, Kevin and Michael have my heart forevaaah.

In one scene, Michael made all of his employees list down on index cards women who he could be set up with. He saw the name Wendy on one of the index cards, who was described as a spirited redhead. When he dialed Wendy's number he actually wound up calling Wendy's. Hahaha. Watching the episode made me realize that I want my own Dwight though. I want a friend crazy enough to find me my own chair model, and who will belt "American Pie" with me in a graveyard no questions asked. (Come back home, Veeetchy!)

Float Away by Up Dharma Down's (yes, the jingle for McDonald's) been on my head for the last week. You are a positive distraction. Hmmmhmmmm. ;p


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I grew up with Abby. Back when I was still young enough to be forced into neighborhood activities like summer volleyball tournaments and cheerleading (I kid you not), I used to see her around, and quite often. It was expected, considering that she lived just a block away. We were never particularly close. The next time I saw her, years later, was in Ateneo, and we'd acknowledge one another each time we'd cross paths with an occasional nod. There was a time when she joined a BlueREP workshop though, which had her stay in school 'til around 8:30. She asked for a ride home and I obliged, but at the last minute she said that she would be hitching with a friend.

Out of sheer boredom I logged onto YM just a few minutes ago. As is often the case, a couple of offline messages popped up. "Please pray for the..." -- it read like usual stupid message people pass around on YM so I was about to close the first window, but when I saw the name "Abigael Parong," I read the message entirely. Apparently, Abby died yesterday morning in a car accident along C5. And just like that, my problems don't seem as significant anymore.

I didn't take the chance to know you then, but I always knew (and felt) you were a good person; someone I wouldn't mind hanging out with. Judging from the many entries that have been written for you, you were well loved, and will be dearly missed.

Rest in peace, Abby.


NEW CONTEST DATES! Pinoy Indie Games will now be held on Feb. 1 to Feb. 3, 2008!
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Intel Philippines is issuing the ultimate gaming challenge to all artists, developers and enthusiasts out there -- build a game from the ground up in just 3 days! Form a team of three -- one developer / programmer, one graphic artist, and one sound effects specialist -- or be one team all by yourself (if you feel that you can do everything on your own), and conceptualize away! If you think you have what it takes, you just might win yourself an Intel Core 2 Quad PC. For more info, visit http://pinoyindiegames.livejournal.com.</font></div>

Make a 2-minute movie and get a chance to win an Intel Core 2 Quad PC!
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You are invited to take part in FREE workshops sponsored by Intel that will teach you how to make your own movie using Machinima, the latest film-making technique sweeping the globe. Machinima is machine+cinema: a film technique that makes PC/Video games usable for making movies and commercials. After the workshops, put your skills to the test and make your own 2-minute film! First prize for best short film is a powerhouse Intel Core 2 Quad PC, but other great prizes await those awarded second and third place.

For inquiries, contact Paula at 0917-8111086 or e-mail machinimanila@gmail.com. Slots are limited so register now!

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Prizes at stake:
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Intel’s Choice Award >> PHP10,000 in GCs
e-games Community Favorite >> e-Games in-game item

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Contest Mechanics:
1) Each participant has an hour to develop a movie using Movie Maker and the Granado Espada game engine provided.
2) The final output must not exceed 2 minutes.
3) It should contain at least one Intel element to be provided during the workshop (i.e. Intel logo, Intel Core 2 Quad badge or Intel bong).
4) Entries will be judged according to the following criteria: Creativity and Originality - 45%, Storyline and Direction - 25%, Best integration of Intel elements - 15% and Effective use of GE game elements - 15%.
5) All workshop participants for Dec. 15 & 16 are eligible to submit their work as entries to the Machinima in Manila contest. Anything created outside of the workshop may not qualify, but may be entered in the online contest.

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Workshop Schedules:
9:30am – 10:00am >> Registration
10:00am – 11:30am >> Session #1
11:30am – 12:00nn >> Registration
12:00nn – 1:30pm >> Session #2
1:30pm – 2:00pm >> Registration
2:00pm – 3:30pm >> Session #3
3:30pm – 4:00pm >> Registration
4:00pm – 5:30pm >> Session #4


10 thousand pesos up for grabs at Digital Overdrive!
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MECHANICS FOR ON-THE-SPOT DIGITAL ART CONTEST:

1) The contest is open to artists of all ages, with or without experience.

2) Contestants of the On-the-Spot Digital Art Contest are to follow the theme, "It's What's Inside that Counts" and must incorporate any of the latest Intel elements creatively in their works.

3) Contestants will be given 1.5 hours to interpret the given theme using Adobe Photoshop CS3 or Corel Painter XI, an Intuos 3 Wacom tablet and a high-speed, multicore computer unit powered by Intel Core 2 Quad.

4) Interested participants will have to pre-register for the one 1.5 hour use of the computer and tablet. Those interested may text or e-mail their names and contact numbers to 0917-8111086 or digitaloverdrive2007@gmail.com, together with their preferred schedule. (ex. Paula J., 0917-811086, Dec. 2, 2:00-3:30pm) Pre-registration schedule during the actual event is as follows: FRIDAY, 10:00am to 9:00pm, and Saturday, 9:00am to 12:00nn.

5) Contestants may bring their own paint brushes and textures. Pre-loaded actions, however, will not be allowed.

6) Entries will be judged according to the following criteria: Originality – 25%, Creativity – 25%, Quality of Work – 25% and Adherence to Theme – 25%.

7) After the eliminations, the top four (4) artists will be chosen to return for the digital animation finals. The winner will be awarded PHP10,000.00, while semi-finalists will win PHP 2,500.00 each.


Gacked from Tish :)
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I'm usually discreet when I surf the net during paid time out of respect to my employer, but when I saw this pic, I couldn't stop laughing. SONGKIE THE MIME! Priceless!!!! Wahahaha.
(I don't remember what I wore to this party. I do remember this night as Dylan's first foray into the world of face paint though, and that even if he instructed me to make him look like a member of KISS, he wound up looking well, bumbay.)


Nene-ness and High School baduy-ness
(I must've thought I was so cool then. -_-')


This entry's rather pointless, I know. But I'm bored, so sue me. And Songkie's picture was too funny not to share. :p The great thing about being friends with these girls for the last 8 years? (Aside from the typical Hallmark-y things like companionship and acceptance and treasured memories) TONS OF BLACKMAIL MATERIAL. Wahaha. :D I love you 9rs!!!

For the record, I find it amazing that we get to see each other more often now that most of us have graduated, as compared to when we were all in college. It's been great growing up with all of you. 'Til the next get-together, ladies. :D (Mommy Tish, come baaack! We miss you!!!)


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HP 7 book leak! --> http://theonlykow.livejournal.com/273031.html#cutid1

I know close to nothing about the series, but I figured some of you guys might be interested. ;)

*bows* / *braces self for the h8rZ* (hahaha.)


I'm jumping on the angry-entry-bandwagon
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...because it has to be said:
if you cross one of us, you'll get 44 other girls after your head.

Now --

Quit being a coward, you stupid motherfucking piece of shit. When you impulsively break up with someone over something so painfully, ridiculously petty, and you refuse to make contact with that person for a specific amount of time, seemingly uninterested in remaining friends at the very least, THEN YOU SHOULD HAVE THE DECENCY TO SEVER TIES COMPLETELY. Don't lead her on with cryptic messages, don't expect her to wait around for you, quit putting both of your friends in the middle of the mess, and for fuck's sake, stand up for the motherfucking choices that you've made.

For the record, asa ka pang papatulan ka nung isa. Decent girls know better than to settle for their friends' seconds. Contrary to what you may think, you're not worth the fucking drama.


Gacked from Jay
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Go to Google and type in quotation marks your name and then "likes to" (ex. "Tom likes to"). Type in the first ten things that come up and repost in your own blog.

1. Pola likes many bookstories. (Wow.)
2. Pola likes playing water pola (his own version of water polo). (LAME!!!)

Yargh. Naubos. Paula it is. -_-'

1. Paula likes to watch old movies, attend concerts and visit museums in her beloved city of New York.
2. Paula likes to __________. (it seriously says that. whut?)
3. Paula likes to get on with the job from the front.
4. Paula likes to watch old movies, attend concerts and visit museums in her beloved city of New York.
5. Paula likes to help out and spend time with her family, listen to music, and do some reading.
6. Paula likes to garden when she has time.
7. Paula likes to "cut up." (I don't get it.)
8. Paula likes to wear her hair in many different styles from natural with her curls soft and shiny to elegant updos and carefully arranged buns.
9. Paula likes to meet me in the morning to “talk the lake”, as she calls it—walk around Lake Merritt and talk out all the solutions to that day’s challenges (or solve the world’s problems, as we jokingly refer to it) so we can get back to work knowing just how to proceed. (this Paula's lame. Haha.)
10. Paula likes to work quickly to keep her rhythm flowing, but she doesn't like to be messy.


I'm aliiiiiiive!
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Let me start my first entry since February by saying JASON STREET IS MY BEBEH DADDEH. Hothothot. ♥

A lot of things have happened since I last updated (understatement of the year). High School Musical's over with. Really happy it was a huge success, but I'm relieved it's over. Ended my last semester of college with an A from Sir Mariano for my PH103 orals and a 3.6 on my "report card." Went job hunting for a while, although since I'm too lazy, I only applied for companies with postings online. So far, I have 2 job offers, one from an up-and-coming advertising agency with mac computers and a cute potential officemate with glasses, and another one from a PR firm (or a transformative marketing company, as they choose to call it) that services Havaianas, Ayala Land, Unilever, Figaro, Pantene and Magnolia. Pretty good for my ego, considering I got a no from the company I was really looking forward to working for. My, my, never realized job hunting could be so heartbreaking. Anyway, even with the two offers, I'm still shopping around for other companies, just in case I find something that pays better. I have three interviews lined up next week, and that's only Monday and Tuesday. I am a Jobstreet whore. Hahaha.

Goddamnit, I'm old. That's what I always end up feeling after Pia and I have heart to hearts about our future. We had planned to go to Singapore in 6 months if things don't work out for us here mainly because Singapore supports theatre, pays big money, and is...clean. Yeah. We were gonna be flat mates and we were gonna fight like an old married couple over late nights and plays left unattended. Of course, with recent developments and with two of us finding jobs, our plan doesn't feel as tangible as before. I don't know if this means we're already settling or if we're giving the Philippines a chance. I'd like to think it's the latter.

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Because of my fascination with The Office (Jim and Pam!! ♥), I decided to get a DVD of the UK version to watch the original series. I'm probably the only one who thinks this, but David Brent is nowhere as charismatic or loveable as Michael Scott. His scenes were almost too painful to watch. On the seventh episode of season 2, I actually slept through the 5 to 7-minute bit where he went on several blind dates. Ugh. Good job DVD pirates for not including The Office (UK)'s Christmas specials, which basically END the series. Had to download the last two eppies from Mininova. Tim and Dawn are love, but my loyalty's still with Jim and Pam. I think I live vicariously through TV characters. It's very sad, really. :)

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I formally (and finally) graduate tomorrow. Wow.


All that worrying for nothing...
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Immersion's finally over. The day before leaving for Maporak, I kept whining about how I wasn't gonna have fun, or fit in, or get something from the experience, partly because my supposed partner backed out at the last minute. It's funny though, because right after leaving the area, I was already trying to figure out when I could return. I think a part of myself grew a little bit sadder, older and wiser in Maporak, and even with the gazillion things to do that welcomed me when I went back home, I'm not the least bit sorry that I went. I wouldn't call the experience life-changing, because to say so presupposes a drastic change in me. I've changed, yes, but I wouldn't want to be hypocritical and start promising things I might not be able to live up to. Don't get me wrong, I learned so much during the three days spent with Nanay Trinidad and the Aeta kids from Maporak. I just hope that I can forever take with me whatever I learned from the people I met there, because to forget would be to say that my Maporak experience was all for naught.

It would be impossible for me to run a list of everything that happened. Maybe there isn't much to tell. If I write about my three days with my Nanay, our horrid (but exhilirating...kind of.) climb to the top of a mountain, my first real slow dance (ayihee!), our river adventures, or the crazy but adorable kids from Maporak, you probably wouldn't understand the significance behind every listed person or every little event. So I'm leaving this entry like this. No pictures, not a lot of details, no analyzing -- just so I won't forget. Just so every time I read this entry, I'll be brought back to peaceful, sandy, little Maporak and remember just what made our visit there so meaningful for me.

To Kuya Ubit, Mommy Yas, Panky, Gigi, Kuya Cute, Glenn, Yaan, Karen, Diane, Kris, Batang Z, and the Brokeback boys Jonas and Miko, thank you. I don't know what exactly I'm thanking you for, but there. Thank you thank you thank you. :) [I think I left someone out but I don't know her name. EEEP!]

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Post-immersion entries are allowed to be unabashedly sentimental, no? I hope to be back there soon.

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Testriffic IQ test

OPEN AUDITIONS!
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Rehearsals will start November 22, 4:30-9:00 pm, in Ateneo.
Show dates will be on the first and second week of February 2007, outside Ateneo.

For more inquiries, text or call 0919-3608974.


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It was career day at my sister's school a few weeks back. My mom and I asked my sister what profession she wanted to enter in the future (not to pre-determine her career path or whatever, but just to figure out what we'd dress her as), and she immediately answered, rather nonchalantly too, that she wanted to be a rockstar. A motherfreaking rockstar.


Guess which one's my sistaaaar!
(Dead giveaway: that girl in blue stole Maia's guitar before the pic was taken.)
She doesn't really look like a rock star, but we tried! :D

This reminded me of how back when I was 7, I told everyone that I was going to be a plastic surgeon. I didn't just say I wanted to become one; I asserted that it was going to happen. It's kind of depressing that I was more sure of what I wanted to do in and get out of life then, than I am now, 5 months away from graduation. Right now I only have vague understandings of what I REALLY want to do, but then...ehhhh. I'm still in denial. I don't want to graduate. Just today my mom took me shopping and I bought a lot of things I didn't really need. Watch me milk my last five months of dependency by stocking up on girly, unnecessary things. Real world, here I come. Huhuhuhuhu. :(


Randomness
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Whoa. Aubrey Miles and her friend will be part of the Amazing Race Asia. 0_0 Dylan and Derek must be kicking themselves for not joining anymore. Wahaha.


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I think I gained 10 pounds yesterday. Spent most of the day asleep and when I was awake, my mom and I would just sit around stuffing our faces, while whining over the lack of things to do. At around 5 o'clock yesterday, since it wasn't raining anymore, I drove out looking for an open internet cafe so I could start my Philo paper and email Chari our questions for thesis. I spent the next two hours driving around to no avail. Finally decided to stop by Robinson's along Commonwealth to buy goods, and surprise, surprise, when I got there people were PANIC BUYING. It's not really that big a deal, but it was my first time to see people raiding shelves and stuff. All their carts were filled with fish, meat, huge bottles of mineral water, rice, etc., while I on the other hand chose to stick to the essentials: coke light, skim milk, marshmallows, flat tops and a candle. :D Did I mention that 75% of the girls in that supermarket were in pekpek shorts? Milenyo, you bad, bad boy, you.

Since my mom asked me to buy batteries, I went to another supermarket, a more low-end one, still along Commonwealth. There were just as many people shopping there, maybe even more than those in Robinson's, but the goods the people bought in the 2nd supermarket were a bit different. No one even bothered to get carts in the 2nd supermarket. They just got batteries, candles and bottles of Tanduay, and left.

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EDIT: I think it was Guy Debord who hinted that the number of billboards seen around cities speak of how gravely societies have fallen to commodification and consumerism. I wonder what he'll say if he found out that billboards have literally KILLED people here after the storm? Not to make light of the situation (because I genuinely feel for the victims), but if an ill-constructed billboard WERE to kill me, I hope to God it isn't, at the very least, one of Richard Gomez's. -_-'


31 months! :D
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I hate making tarps. I never want to see another tarp again. I hate having to wait for Photoshop to finish rendering. I've been waiting for the last x minutes for the program to "build histograms." What the hell is a motherfucking histogram???!? I don't have time for thiiiis. -_-' I'm supposed to have the whole day free today, but so far, I've spent the last 7 hours in front of the computer. I'm supposed to audition for Enta at around 6 too, but at this point, I don't think I'll be able to make it. Fucking stupid big-ass tarp. When will this eeeeend? <-- drama.

In other news, thesis is ALMOST over. Just a couple more interviews to beef up our paper and we're DONE. Whew. Knowing I won't have to worry about our thesis anymore is a huge load off my back. Now if only my teachers in my other subjects could ease up on giving us work too. Someone told me before that senior year is going to be a piece of cake; that aside from thesis you won't have to worry about anything else. Is it just me, or do people always say that about every semester / year? Is there seriously an easy sem in Ateneo? I'm still waiting for that reputed "sure DL" sem. I think it already passed me by. Hah.

SOMEONE PLEASE CONFIRM IF WE HAVE CLASSES TOMORROW OR NOT COZ OF THE STORM!! *crosses fingers* I want to watch the gaaaame!


last week for thesis = no going out
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Agh. This is horrible. I promised myself that I'd stay home this weekend to finish our final paper for thesis. It's only 7 in the evening and already I'm losing my resolve. I want to text Reg or Dylan or whoever and ask them to drink with me. I want to see my friends. I want to go ooout. Gah. The lack of anything remotely alcoholic in my system is making me twitch. Haha. I'm such a drama queen.

This really is horrible though. My schedule for the night: read 13 communication journals, and finish the theoretical framework of our thesis. Boo. :(

I'm so bored it's not even funny. I've been whining for about two hours now so I decided to divert my attention to something else: my graduation picture-taking on Monday. All week long I've been stressing about what my creative shot will be, and I think I finally found a concept I like.

Clue: I...wanna rock and roll all night... )

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God help me if the Aegis people push through with their plan to feature ONLY our creative pics in the yearbook. Wahahahuhuhu.


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